I’m sitting under our favorite tree
I wondering if you’re thinking of me
I’ve thought about nothing else since you went away
You plague my life day after, day after day.
I think about how you used to hold my hand
And how you always thought my jokes were so grand
I think about the time we went to Paris
We had a great trip, despite your brother Harris
I remember the way you looked after a long, hard day
You knew I’d always be there to assure you, it’s okay
I thought you’d always be here too
Your being gone leaves me without a clue
I sometimes smell a faint memory of your scent
I know it’s not possible, but I hope it’s you leaving me a hint
I thought it would get easier as time passed by
I miss coming home to you saying hi
It hasn’t gotten less painful as I watch the world keep turning
And I keep laying awake yearning
Burning for you to return to me as if it weren’t true
Waking each morning not exactly sure what to do
What’s the next step in my life
I don’t think I could be someone else’s wife
I’m in love with you more today than ever before
I hate that tragedy has closed our door
You were the light of my dead-end alley
Now I live in the deepest, darkest valley
I’m so angry that you thought it was OK to die
You said you’d take care of me forever, you lied
I don’t think anyone really knows how much I hurt
My heart feels like it’s been drug through the dirt
It’s only been a few months, maybe I just need more time
What I really need is for everyone to stop telling me “it’ll be fine”
It won’t, I miss you so much I can’t breathe
Every night I wonder how could you leave
I mourn the loss of you, my one true love
That now looks down upon me from above
I’m going to move on, I promise you that
And no I’m not going to start collecting cats
I won’t become one of those old ladies
I rather spend the next 100 years in Hades
I say all these things but the future’s unsure
Because my heart ache’s for you, and there’s no cure
I think coming to visit our tree has helped
Rehashing the pains that life has dealt
I’m going to continue to love you forever
But as you know I am too clever
To waste away until I’m an old crone
Destined to spend my life alone
No…you know I sparkle too much to settle
Even though my throat is still encased in your metal
Your collar you put there to show that I’m yours
Each time I remember that night, my heart soars
Maybe one day I’ll be able to move on
Maybe one day I’ll be able to admit that your gone
Until then, I’ll continue to visit our tree
And wonder if you’re thinking of me
This is so exquisitly and painfully beautiful. You’ve perfectly and hauntingly displayed the visceral and raw pain of loss. Hugs and lots of live darling. Xxx
I’m humbled! Thank you! Seriously from the bottom of my heart!!
Incredibly beautiful, P.
Thank you G!! That’s my favorite tree, about 4 miles from my house! 🙂 it inspired me!
This poem reminded me of Anabel James’ Mephisto series. Heartbreaking.
Thank you for comparing me to such amazingly awesome work!! Wow! That’s so kind of you to say!!! Thank you again! 🙂
You’re most welcome. 🙂
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Sometimes Bad Penny takes a time out and is just Sweet Beautiful Soulful Penny. Check it out!
Excellent post. The emotion leapt off of the screen.
Yay! It’s the first time I ever wrote about death… I can’t believe so many people liked it!!! -dancing all over the place… Shakin what my mama gave me!!-
💋😘❤
Straight from your soul to those of all who read this one, Penny.
Well done!
Spanks so much, Sir!! It’s one of my favorite poems! 🙂
Wow, beautifully sad…
Thank you! It’s one of my favorites I’ve written 🙂
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Nominated you for Blog Of The Year 2012…just my little token to say I enjoy you and what you write. 🙂
Thank you so much. I will try to answer just as soon as possible, but I have quite a few deadlines right now, so please don’t be disappointed if it takes me a few weeks to post about the nomination. I’m thankful for the amazing support, and I adore your blog as well. You give me inspiration. 🙂
Oh, no rush or worries. Just wanted you to know I thought of you. 🙂
Beautiful & powerfully haunting.
Penny….heart wrenching. Awesome. So brave to share with us.
My dampened cheeks and quivering lip want me to tell you how touching this piece is… Beautifully heartfelt, Penny. x
My dampened cheeks and quivering lip want me to tell you how touching this piece is… Beautifully heartfelt, Penny. x
Awe I’m sorry it made you cry , but thank you so much for the sweet and kind words! -hugs-
Don’t ever say sorry for conjuring emotion sweets. That’s what we write for. And you nailed it. Thank you x
Oh you’re gonna make me cry!!! Thank you!
Love and licks! XoXo
Penny this is wonderfully written, painful and beautiful all in one. I struck a chord in me and made me wonder……
I’m thrilled so many are enjoying it! It was something very outside my norm… Tragedy isn’t my bag if tea usually, but this poem begged to be written! Again thank you!
Penny
This was so heart wrenching and beautiful. Your poetry usually creates a lump of various emotions in my throat and every once in a while causes the lump to overflow in tears. Could you put up a Kleenex advisory in the future so I’m prepared?!!
xo
Oh no!!! Yes … I’ll work on a Kleenex graphic just for you darling! I’m glad I can evoke such awesome emotions!
P.S. You made my night with the Kleenex comment! You rock!
Bad Penny’s always to blame! Heh
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A piece from my beautiful Bad Penny. I love it! Beautifully painful, it strikes at the bottom of my heart. xo
You gorgeous amazing woman! Thank you for enjoying my poem enough to think it was reblog worthy! I’m so grateful!!!
Love and licks!!!
Bad Penny
Love love love it!;)
You are gorgeous yourself!
❤ xox gel
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Heartfelt words of loss and yearning….
🙂 Spanks!
P
I feel your loss and pain. Peace.
Thanks! It was for my granny with my own twist. 🙂
P