I thought he was the love of my life
I thought I would be his wife
I destroyed every relationship that couldn’t compare
I did anything I could to show him I cared
He said he couldn’t marry me if I was over 200 lbs
Yes, I know how shitty that sounds
But, I loved him
So, 5 days a week I went to the gym
I wish I had the confidence I have now, then
I wouldn’t have wasted so much time on him… again
Because I’ve out grown loving him
Every fear I had he tested,
Questioning if I was invested… in him.
What I realized was they were all excuses for why I’d never be enough
After 13 years, it was some really heavy stuff
But I’m tough!
I don’t know where single life will lead me
But, I’m so excited I could pee!
Yes, I’ve out grown him, indeed!
Penelope Jones— Spanking It Since 1996!
Copyright July 2016